Let’s just say South Beach on Memorial Day Weekend is the craziest thing I’ve ever seen and this is the best weekend of my life.
Oh, and I know I’ve been absent on my blog recently, but I’ll be back soon enough.
Anyone in Florida? Come say hi
3 notesSince we broke up, I got hot and you got awkward belly fat and even more weird than you used to be.
I’m so glad I’m on the positive side of this karma.
8 notesIt’s stupid that I can’t even have gay friends sometimes because all anyone ever wants to do with me is fuck.
2 notesI’m so happy I started doing Yoga again. I feel like I’m getting back in touch with myself.
1 noteNever show weakness, never show yourself vulnerable. Once you do, people will always judge you for that. In their mind, there will always be a time when they thought lesser of you. If you always show that you’re strong, strength is the only thing they’ll have to remember you by. In their minds, you will always be great.
11 notesI had such a good birthday, to sum it up quickly:
- Froyo on the city green with my best friend
- Sushi Lunch
- Party at my parents huge ass house
- Homeemade Pizza
- Bonfire
- Alcohol
- Alcohol
- Club
- Alcohol
- Massive sleepover at my friends house
Sometimes I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m nineteen years old and I’ve never been in a healthy, functioning relationship. I just don’t get it. I’m so afraid all the time. Of being hurt, of giving myself to someone. The concept of being able to Love someone is so foreign to me. Even the idea that I have that capability is like a distant memory to me. I can recall what it feels like to Love someone, but I can’t remember what it felt like. I can’t remember being happy and feeling safe and loved. I don’t know, maybe I blocked it out.
I just don’t understand why I’m so scared to Love someone. I can’t imagine myself with someone or ever calling someone my boyfriend. I can’t remember what it’s like to feel like your heart doesn’t have to be alone anymore. Maybe I just need a special person to wake me the fuck up.
2 notesIt sucks because I know you’re one of the few people I could fall in Love with I wasn’t so fucking afraid if getting hurt all the time.
2 notesThe one thing I hate more than anything is being talked down to. These snide, condescending remarks are driving me fucking crazy. I feel like I’m living with my exboyfriend all over again and I can’t deal with it anymore holy shit.
2 notesI think the most beautiful words someone can ever say are: “I don’t want to lose you.” Knowing that you’re special enough and close enough to someone that they want to hold onto you is an amazing feeling.
10 notesSummer 2012 in Miami Beach
I can’t stop saying this enough.
3 notesSince I got accepted into school in Los Angeles for the Fall Semester, I’m not going to spend the summer here. If I stayed the summer in LA, I’d be working to pay rent and just live all summer.
My grandfather owns a beach condo in Miami Beach and only uses it in the Winter when it’s too cold for him to be in CT. No one’s in it, so I’ll be spending the summer working down in Miami that way I can be saving money and preparing for my school year in California.
Life is fucking fantastic right now and I couldn’t be happier with where I am. Hope you’re all doing well and if you’re on the Florida East Coast, hit me up! I’ll be down there on May 18th!
5 notesI’ve been asked to do porn like seven times since I’ve been in California.
I take this as a compliment.
Omg and I said no obviously.
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